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betrayed by a jumpsuit

May 24th | thoughts, what I'm wearing

Let me tell you of a love story that ends in betrayal. It has nothing to do with that silly, smiley little boy and everything to do with that innocent looking jumpsuit!

No sooner had I sung the praises of jumpsuits {they’re so comfortable! perfect for travel! like wearing pajamas!} than I ended up in an airport bathroom stall exposing myself to the entire room. I checked and double checked the latch to make sure the door was latched–but as soon as I undressed {the whole thing has to come off basically} and sat down, someone went into the stall next to mine and as their door closed, it jiggled my door free. I couldn’t reach the door so I had to scoot as quickly as I could to get it closed again. Once I was alone again, I just started LAUGHING! It was a laugh or cry situation, if you know what I mean! I had been betrayed by my beloved jumpsuit and stabbed in the back by my fickle bathroom stall door. It was like they planned it and conspired against me.

Two hours later I ended up in the airplane bathroom {basically one square foot} with nowhere to hang my jean jacket except on top of my head and a floor that was so wet, I didn’t want my pants to touch it. Ugh! So I’m holding my jumpsuit off the ground and trying to balance my jacket on my head and maneuver in a tiny space. This jumpsuit–whoever thought they were a good idea?! Oh wait, me!

Moral of the story, while I love jumpsuits, I’m never wearing one for travel again. They simply can’t be trusted! I’ve learned my lesson!

one wish

May 16th | finding beauty, finding love

When David was a couple of years old, my sister asked me, “If you had one wish, what would it be?” My first thought was, David wouldn’t have a disability. But then I tried to imagine David without his disability. He wouldn’t look the same or act the same. He wouldn’t be small or spunky in the same way. He wouldn’t have his sweet little button nose or his huge carefree grin. If I woke up one morning and David didn’t have a disability I wouldn’t recognize him. And he wouldn’t be my David, my sweet boy, whom I love with all that I am.

In that moment I sat there completely baffled. Of course David’s disability brings many challenges, but when I realized I wouldn’t change it because I love David–just the way he is, it made me feel hopeful.It made me want to stop wishing things were different and embrace the way they are. Life is full of imperfections, isn’t it? But there is beauty to be found. Even in the darkness and the muck there are little rays of light. I want to focus on the beauty and not waste time wishing away the hard stuff.

So if I had one wish, what would I wish for? I think I’d wish for contentment. That’s where my heart finds peace.

Becoming a mother

May 12th | finding love

He came out quietly. There were whispers from the doctors. There was a terrifying tension that filled the room.

After the doctors did a quick evaluation, Steve, my husband brought David over to me and laid this tiny, swaddled baby on my chest. He was adorable. He had a full head of hair, blue eyes and a button nose.

He also had only two fingers on his left hand, a severe heart defect and we would soon find out, a genetic disorder that would make life look very different for our new baby.

I’m sharing over at {in}courage today! Hop over to read the rest of the post.

Interview: Addie and her Bubbie

April 25th | finding love, jewelry

I am so excited to share another Mother’s Day interview with you! If you missed the first one, you can find it here. Addison and her Bubbie are locals here in San Luis Obispo, CA. Addison works at a local boutique and her grandmother is a painter. How cool is that?! All the pics were taken at Bubbie’s house. The love between these two is so visible in these pics–and it warms my heart.

Growing up, what is a favorite memory of your grandmother?

When my grandparents lived in See Canyon, my Bubbie used to take my brother, Eden and I out on adventures. She would begin by telling us a made up story about what we were doing or looking for. Often times we were looking for buried treasure or hunting fairies. We would spend hours playing pretend and tramping through the creeks, collecting mushrooms and rocks. My Bubbie has an amazing imagination.

How has your grandmother impacted your life / What do you most admire about her?

She has always marched to the beat of her own drum. She’s chosen to do the things she loves most and puts her heart into everything she does. She has inspired me to do the same in my life. She does everything with love and she has taught me to love unconditionally.

What is your favorite thing to do when you get together?

Honestly, talk. She has so much wisdom and knowledge, when I am with her I try to soak up any bits and pieces of it that I can. I love walking away from a conversation with her feeling like I could conquer the world. But we also love to go antique shopping together and I absolutely love watching her cook.

Do you have a funny story or memory you would like to share?

Bubbie, is a funny story. She is a true wild child and she hasn’t stopped testing the waters since the day she was born, I think. Let’s say I have way to many funny stories to tell and none that she would approve of me telling. She is just wonderful.

What makes her better than any other grandmother?

She is so many things wrapped into one lady, a cook, a gardener, a painter, a dancer, a giver, a fighter. She is the best because she is Bubbie, anyone who meets her instantly agrees and instantly falls in love with her. She just radiates love, that’s what makes her the best.

Addison, thank you for sharing your grandmother with us! You both have such a spark and I love seeing inside your special relationship.

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Do you have a special memory with your grandmother? Please share it with us. I remember crying with my grandma after a break-up with a boyfriend, eating potato cheese soup together on Tuesday nights and she gave me my love for fiestaware! Grandmas are a special part of our lives. Tell us about a special moment with your grandmother.

the heart behind the necklace {Mandy’s story}

April 23rd | finding love, thoughts

Dear friends, today I’m sharing Mandy’s story with you. It’s a beautiful story and it will touch your heart.

I can’t begin to tell you how blessed I feel to be part of their journey. That God can use my jewelry as a connection point to encourage and forever intertwine two lives makes my heart want to burst with gratefulness.

Please take a few minutes to read Mandy’s story and to see how absolutely precious this little life is–and how her life continues to bless others.

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Last spring my daughter was born with half a heart. She was our miracle baby after ten years of infertility, many medical treatments, and much heartache. Unfortunately, her twin brother had passed into Heaven halfway through my pregnancy. When Abigail was born, I purchased four of your heart necklaces that were stamped with the words, “I hold your heart in mine.” I gave one to my mother, sister, sister-in-law, and kept one for myself. While Abigail was in the NICU, we put the necklace across her chest and took a series of newborn photos.

At four days old, she underwent a 10 hour open heart surgery and we were filled with hope and relief when she survived the difficult and risky procedure. We prayed for a miracle but we did not get one. Despite her brave and feisty spirit, Abigail died at one week of age. The heart necklaces have become a real link to Abigail for those of us that loved her most. I have not taken mine off for even a single day since then. Because she lived only a short time and never left the hospital, there are very few tangible things to link me to Abigail. I touch my necklace and I think: She wore this too. It brought me a real sense of comfort during the year that followed Abigail’s death, which was harder than words can say.

On Easter Sunday, we celebrated the one year anniversary of her passing. Our goal is to put more love into the world in her honor, so in the past six months we joined forces with another couple, Brad and Jeannette Gill, to start a nonprofit organization called “The Smallest Gift”. We send care packages to families who experience miscarriage, stillbirth, or infant loss. On her birthday we launched our brand new website www.thesmallestgift.org! We have already sent many packages filled with our love, tears, and prayers all across the United States and to Canada and Australia as well. Abigail’s little light shines on in the world in a big way, through us.

Happily, our story does not end there. Last month we were surprised by a miracle of another sort- one we weren’t even searching for at the time. We brought home a newborn baby boy through the miracle of adoption! We are deeply grateful to his first mother for this tremendous gift.  I wanted something special to connect myself and his first mother forever, so I purchased two beautiful gold bracelets with a heart charm and our initials. They connect us, my son’s first mother and me, his forever mother. Thank you, Lisa, for being a part of our lives in such a beautiful and meaningful way!

Mandy, you’re story is full of hope and beauty. Thank you so much for sharing it here–we are grateful!

Podcast with Simple Mom

April 22nd | blog friends, thoughts

I’ve got a new podcast with Simple Mom! In this episode we talk about speaking and doing LIVE television shows. We talk about creativity and making time to get inspired. And we talk about a bit our faith too!

These podcasts are really fun to listen to. It’s kind of like being a fly on the wall and overhearing someone’s conversation. I often listen to them while I’m doing dishes or driving around town. I love getting to know people better through podcasts! Click here to listen in!

fear and letting myself be stretched.

April 17th | thoughts

{on the set of D Living. My nieces, Megan and Clara came to cheer me on!}

A couple weeks ago I made lists, prepared, packed my bags, and headed to Dallas to do a morning show and speak at Blissdom Conference. I was so stressed the week before that I detailed out where I needed to be and when–in half hour blocks in my calendar. I made a list of what outfit to wear what day, including accessories so I wouldn’t have to expend any brain power on tiny details.

The evening before my the morning show I pulled up the list on my phone and packed all of the things I needed for segment. I made tidy piles and put everything into bags. I had printed directions to the studio and breakfast pre-ordered through the hotel. Every ‘T’ was crossed and every ‘I’ was dotted. I laid in bed but couldn’t fall asleep. For an hour I laid there thinking about what needed to happen the next morning. Finally I let my mind wander and drifted off to sleep.

Too soon my alarm sounded and it was time to rise and {try to} shine. My nerves began to kick in again. I tried to take my time getting ready I kept telling myself the segment would be fine. I showered, dressed, and did my make-up.  I double checked my list to make sure I had everything I needed for my segment and headed down to my car. Slowly I pulled out of the hotel parking lot and listened as my maps app on my iphone told me where to go.

I missed my freeway entrance and did a U turn. I turned on the radio and then turned it off–ugh, too much input. I wanted to pull over the car and curl into a ball. I noticed the knot in my stomach and the tension in my shoulders. “I hate the way I feel” I thought. “Why did I ever agree to do this?” It wasn’t just nervousness. I felt fear. I was afraid of being humiliated. On live television.

I arrived at the station. I sat in the parking garage and attempted to collect myself. Deep breath. Another deep breath. Ok, go time.

After a little hunting I found the studio. I set up my DIY project and displayed some jewelry. More deep breaths. As the cameras rolled, I felt the nervousness fade and away. I felt like myself. And most shocking to me, I had fun. Afterwards I felt like I had climbed Mount Everest. I felt victorious. The segment wasn’t perfect but it was good–and I felt like I grew as a person.

I want to be willing to be stretched. I want to be willing to be afraid. I want to be willing to fail–as hard and scary as that may be. Because I can’t grow if I don’t try hard things.

Tonight I fly to Salt Lake City and tomorrow morning I’ll be on Studio 5–and I feel nervous AGAIN. But maybe a little less so than last time?

Have you done anything lately that felt hard? Where have you felt stretched?

for megan

March 20th | finding beauty, inspiration

A letter to my niece…

Sweet Megan

Oh my goodness, you are so grown up already. I remember holding you as a tiny baby when I was pregnant with David.  I’ve loved watching you grow, getting to know your sweet spirit and seeing how God is already working in your heart.

As you know, I grew up as a twin, too. I was one part of a set of two. It was she and I–always together, constantly being mixed up, laughing over silly things and sometimes driving each other crazy.

Being a twin was mostly wonderful. I had my sister beside me on the first day of school.  She made friends more easily than I did and I depended on her to help me navigate new situations. Having her next to me made scary things easier.

When we were ten years old, she shaved her legs. She told me she couldn’t believe how smooth they felt. It seemed so grown up. So, of course I couldn’t wait to shave my legs too!

In the afternoons we practiced drawing for hours, listened to our favorites songs on repeat and quoted movie lines together.  No one knew me better than my twin sister.

And because we were always grouped together, I compared myself to her.
I noticed that her hair was a little curlier, her teeth were a little straighter and her grades were a little higher.

I’m blogging over at {in}courage today. Hop over and read the rest of the post!

podcast with simple mom!

March 7th | blog friends, thoughts

Hi friends! Tsh from Simple Mom and I are sharing a podcast this week. We’re talking about traveling with kiddos, after-school activities {how do we give our kids opportunities–how much is too much?} We also talk about fashion and whatever else comes to mind.

I love to hook my iphone up to a speaker and move around the house while I listen to podcasts–it’s kind of like being a fly on the wall and listening on a conversation. It’s casual and fun.

You can listen in here.

Just for you! {valentine’s day printables}

February 12th | finding love, food & goodies

We have a gift for YOU today! My friend Kyle, who is an AMAZING artist designed these free printable valentine’s. Just click on the image and you can download them on to your computer. Awesome!

Now all you need to do is pick up some candy or a box of crayons and you’re all set. I love LOVE, don’t you?