Archive for the ‘thoughts’ Category

sister getaway

February 16th | finding beauty, thoughts

A couple weeks ago my sister and I met up for an overnighter in Santa Barbara. If I had my way, we’d do this at least once a month, but kids, work and other responsibilities make that really difficult. So we do it as often as we can. And every time we get away it’s like food for my soul. We laugh, we talk–about little things and big things. We soak each other up and enjoy every minute.I always leave refreshed and inspired. I think it’s time to get our next getaway on the calendar! What’s something relaxing you’ve done to refresh your soul lately?

A Savior is Born

December 13th | thoughts

Today I’m teaming up with World Vision to talk about the ‘True Spirit of Christmas’.  I love World Vision and what they do, check out their blog and find out more about child sponsorship here.

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I grew up in a Christian family where I understood the true meaning of Christmas from a very young age. I heard the Christmas story so many times I became almost numb to it. The Wiseman, shepherds, angels and stable animals were all supporting actors in a play that I had seen too many times and at times felt I couldn’t sit through again. After all, there were presents waiting to be unwrapped and hot cocoa waiting to be sipped. I am thankful my parents didn’t indulge my childish impatience, and that they consistently took time to explore the spirit behind Christmas with my siblings and me. It’s more than just a season that happens every year and brings sweets and gifts. The first Christmas was an earth-altering, destiny-changing day. Those there to witness it must have been in awe of what was happening.

This year my family is looking more closely at the nativity story {found in Luke 2 and Matthew 2}. We want to explore what it must have been like to be the various people inside the nativity story. What did each of them think and feel? Did they know that they were witnessing the most important historical event that would ever take place?

In the dark of night, an angel appeared to shepherds in a field and told them of Jesus’ birth. They were tending their sheep, just expecting another normal night, when an angel appeared. In Luke 2, we are told they were terrified. What would it have been like to see a real angel? The shepherds dropped what they were doing and went to find the Savior. I wonder, did they expect to find Jesus in a stable, lying in a manger?

We are told in Matthew 2 that the Magi {Wiseman} were overjoyed when the star led them to Jesus. They had been warned in a dream not to let King Herod know where the child was. When they found Jesus, did the Wiseman really understand they stood in the presence of God? Where they fearful of hiding his whereabouts from Kind Herod?

The story of Jesus’ birth spread quickly around the land. We are told all who heard it were amazed. Did they believe that God had sent his son to save all humankind? Did they want to go and see the baby for themselves?

The virgin Mary had just given birth to a baby boy. In Luke 2, we are told she pondered all these things and treasured them in her heart. She was a new wife and a new mom. Was she nervous about the responsibilities in front of her? Did she feel unfit to raise a child who was the Son of God?

Will you join my family and I as we take time to consider the magnitude of Christmas and how are lives are forever changed? Read the Christmas story and talk about how different people in the story must have felt and what they experienced. Check out their 12 Blogs of Christmas–so inspiring.  Also, will you consider giving a gift that will change the lives of others? Check out the World Vision Gift Catalog and find some incredible ways to celebrate the true spirit of Christmas!

what if?

December 2nd | david, finding beauty, thoughts

the other evening after tucking the boys into bed, steve came downstairs and said, ‘i just had the most surreal experience. i was telling david to lay down and kissing him good-night and as i looked at him i saw a nine year old boy–no disability. just david. it was like our souls had a connection.’

as soon as he described the interaction the tears began to roll down my cheeks. i knew exactly what he meant–there are times, moments, i see beyond david’s disability and into his soul. and i see a little boy stuck in a body that won’t cooperate with him. i see him wanting to speak words and unable to get them out. i see him wanting to tell me something, to ask for something or describe something but there is a chasm between us and it’s too wide to cross.

i’m blogging over at {in}courage today. hop over and read the rest of the post here…

thankfulness

November 22nd | thoughts

the other day i drew a tree on our big chalkboard and matthias and i filled in some things we are thankful for on each leaf.

He is thankful for captain underpants, God, art, treats and everything {his words}

I’m thankful for our little family, living in a place where we can get great healthcare, a job that allows us a lot of flexibility and you! Thank you for visiting here and sharing our journey. I am so grateful for this community.

What are you thankful for?

fear and finding peace

November 8th | david, inspiration, thoughts

Things have been a little crazy around here for the last couple months. It’s mainly focused around David’s burst of new activity and trying new things. It’s incredibly exciting so see him climbing stairs, standing on tables {yikes} and clearing out the cupboards. Every day it seems like he’s trying something new–and it makes my heart so happy to see him grow and learn and succeed.

But there’s another part of me that struggles with change. I have to watch him more–a lot more. The more independent he gets, the less independence I have. And while that’s a phase with toddlers and preschoolers, it will be likely be life-long for our family. The other day while I was driving to meet my sister I was trying to sort through all my emotions. Why am I not overjoyed with David’s progress? What is going on with me?

And then the word hit me like a ton of bricks. Fear. Fear that my life will stop and will completely revolve around his needs. Fear that as David gains independence I won’t be able to keep him safe. What if he climbs up something and falls down and really gets hurt? What if he opens a door when I’m not looking and gets out of the house? What if we’re no longer able to eat out or have friends over because David takes too much of our time and attention?

Recognizing my own fear helps to stop me from falling into a spiral. Today may be difficult in ways, but today is manageable. Today is beautiful. Today we are busy with David’s needs but I get time to sneak away and be with friends. We have people over for dinner often. I have time to create and dream and get inspired.

Last week I met Chrissie in Carpinteria for a sister day and it was like food for my soul. It was so good.

Time with her wipes away fear and helps me to regain perspective. Maybe since we are identical twins, I’m actually more myself when we are together? A day away last week was just what I needed to refresh, recharge and get inspired.  And truthfully, coming home I am ready to give all I am to my boys. I’m ready to celebrate David’s success. I’m less fearful and more whole.

We are all facing challenges in our life–small or big. How are you coping with fear and finding peace these days?

pretty

October 11th | an everyday moment, thoughts

a couple weeks ago i popped into sephora with my friend jen and her daughter gracie. we tried on different lipsticks and gracie was so cute–she felt so grown up and pretty.
when i was little twirly skirts, lipstick. lots of barrettes, and sparkly shoes were sure to make me feel glamourous.  and i got to thinking, what makes me feel pretty these days? here’s a short list of things that come to mind…

new shoes

a good haircut

a restful night’s sleep

laughing with friends

my husband telling me i’m beautiful

most of all, accepting that i was made to be me.

what makes you feel pretty?

amazed by david

September 1st | an everyday moment, david, thoughts

my head is full of thoughts about this little boy.

while we were in england he decided to sneak out the back door, down two steps, past the side gate and into the front yard. steve and i were absolutely flabbergasted since david is very cautious around stairs and always wants help descending. i love when he shows independence, but it’s also concerning since we never know what he’ll do next!

earlier today i was reflecting on how much has changed in the last year. last summer david was fragile–constantly fighting colds and looking toward open heart surgery. i worried about him so much. now he is stonger, healthier and more energetic. he does new things every day and is communicating more and more. it makes my heart so happy to see him grow and explore–but it does worry me too. i feel like we have to watch him more closely. and we’ve been child-proofing the house even further–like replacing all our glasses with plastic tumblers. we also plan to install a gate at the top of our staircase.

today i am so incredibly thankful for david’s energy and adventurous spirit. and today i’m not going to worry too much. i want to let him be a kid and i don’t want to hover over him all the time. he is showing more independence–which means i need to let him have more independence!

today i’m amazed by david and what a miracle he is!

celebrating our birthdays

August 29th | adventures, family, thoughts

chrissie and i are twins, and two of our younger sisters are twins. our birthdays all fall in late august–so every year the four of us get together to celebrate. it’s seriously one of the highlights of my summer!

we met in santa barbara on saturday to shop, eat and spend some time sitting and talking.

we shopped the little flea market in carpinteria and then got lunch. of course we planned some time for anthropologie.

there may have been hot fudge sundaes invloved.

i love to visit the colorful, outdoor indian market on state street. i picked up a fun skirt.

we finished off a perfect day with some delicious mexican food and lots of time to talk over coffee. it was one of those perfect days.

my sisters are a source of genuine, heart-felt support and love. i’m blessed to have a few friends that are like sisters as well. do you have a sister or friend who understands your heart and loves you no-matter-what?

hello monday

August 14th | adventures, finding beauty, hello monday

hello church steeple at sunset

hello canopy of leaves with sunlight peeking through

hello cousins who just met, but have known each other forever

hello seeing england through david’s eyes

hello scones, clotted cream, jam and coffee. heavenly.

hello cousin in law sara and her darling girls

hello little ladybug with well placed spots

hello bright colors from a summer market

hello birds in a cloudy sky

hello union jack–we are having a wonderful time in england!

today we are going to explore oxford and maybe do a little antiquing.

what are you saying hello to on this sweet, new monday?

sunflowers

July 21st | finding beauty, thoughts

“the sunflower is mine, in a way.”
— vincent van gogh

it’s true, sunflowers always remind me of vincent van gogh. i am always amazed at how hardy sunflowers are, and how much water they drink. but mostly i love their bright color and how happy they are!

have you ever grown sunflowers or do you purchase bouquets for your home?